As always it takes me awhile to write. I keep meaning to and I've even started a few times but for some reason I just can't finish. I've been too wrapped up with work and life that I can't seem to get my thoughts in order!

This week there was a school shooting at Virginia Tech and it just makes me SO SAD. I've been watching and watching the news and reading the newspapers and I just cannot understand. This kid was screwed up and because of it 32 people are dead. I have a friend who says "those are 32 deaths out of how many that happen EVERY DAY that are not reported about." True. But these are deaths that shouldn't have happened. They are deaths that could have been avoided. I want to hate this person and yet feel sorry for him at the same time. I'm angry that he couldn't seek help, that he just sat there and let it all build up until it finally exploded. However life is hard and it does suck. And what could have been going through his head to make him want to murder people like it's absolutely NOTHING. It's sick. It's so sick. What must his parents be going through? I'm just sad that our world is like this and sometimes it feels like nothing can be done to change anything.

Work has been... work. We have a new boss, Chris, and so far he seems okay. He's no Tracy but he's definitely no Hank (ex boss from Borders that I feel an extreme anger toward for how he treated me). So far I think everyone's just trying to settle a little bit. The thing that has made me really appreciate him is that yesterday he actually went over next week's schedule with me to make sure that the hours and days he's given me are okay. He didn't need to do that. It was so nice that he did.

So the boss is nice but there is a coworker that I'm starting to get angry with. Ellie. Usually I just put up with her but... I don't know. The last time I worked with her at all she spent all her time in the back, as always, talking to Jake while I was out front by myself. It's annoying. When I come in to close and she's been working the mid shift she claims it was too busy for her to get her crap done. Well maybe that's because she too freaking busy in the back and not doing her job. AND YET who gets to go to a shift supervisor meeting next week? Ellie does. She doesn't deserve it. Jake does. And I feel like I do. Martha does. We all do our jobs. Ellie can't seem to get it together but she's enough of a busy body to push herself right in. And it makes me really upset. But I'm too nice to say anything to her. It just sucks. I really can't wait until I transfer and until I'm only working 20 hours a week and I don't care so much. I'll graduate and get my degree and then all this stupid stuff won't matter so much. Right now, though, it hurts.

This past weekend Dustin and I hung out with Rich and Nina. Some people just think that's BIZARRE considering that Rich is my ex and that Nina is his girlfriend. And yeah, it is a little bizarre. But I think very highly of Rich and I would have been sad to lose him from my life completely. And Nina is amazing. I seriously can't believe how quickly we've become such good friends but it's just GREAT. We had such a good time this weekend (I won't mention Dustin's and my little fight) and I am so grateful for the friends I have!

For now I'm still plugging away and just trying to live my life the best way I can.

More soon!