I am starting to get really sick of work. I feel like I'm being taken advantage of and I don't really know how to stand up for myself. Yesterday when I got to work there were things that weren't done (of course it had been Jake that was there before me so I don't know why I was even surprised). Then I found out Tracy changed next week's schedule so I only get one day off instead of two, and yet I'm still working the same amount of hours. On top of it she wanted me to set up all this stupid Halloween crap. I'm just tired. I'm tired of getting phone calls from other stores, I'm tired of Tracy making me feel guilty when I don't feel like working certain shifts, I'm tired of closing all the time, of stupid customers, of all of it. And I don't know how I'm going to get through it. I've pretty much decided that I'll wait till fall semester 2007 to go back to school so that means I have a little less than a year still at Caribou. That seems like such a long time. I really need a break. And I wish I could talk to Tracy about all the pressure she's putting on me but every time I start to I back down. She gives me some song and dance about why she needed to do certain things and then I feel bad for being angry. It's a bad situation, I'm not sure how to deal with it.

Puerto Rico. Dustin brought up wanting to go there over spring break and at first I thought that there was no way I could afford to take a week off of work on top of paying for the plane ticket AND the stay at his dad's condo (we'd get a discount but we wouldn't get it for free). However, now that I've thought about it I figure if I save up my tips from work, along with Christmas money and money back from taxes I should be able to afford going. And I really NEED to go. Not to mention I think maybe this could be where Dustin will propose. I know I need to stop worrying about it so much, it's pretty damn controlling, but I can't help it! I just think it would be a great vacation for both of us and I'd love to go.

Anyway. Must go eat because I have to leave for work at 12:45. Bleh. More soon.