I don't know what to do anymore. If I wasn't getting insurance from Caribou I'd pretty much be saying a big "FUCK YOU" right now. I am so fed up with Tracy and corporate and all the bullshit that comes along with it.

Tonight when I got to work there was a note in my tip drawer from Tracy. To sum it up it pretty much said that I can't have off the holidays that I previously asked off for. It went on to say that it's unfair to everyone else that works at the store and that she just can't promise me those days. At the end of the note it said something like "Thanks for being so understanding about the well being of the rest of the crew here." I couldn't believe it. First of all, I requested those days off back in July. She's known for forever that I wanted those days off and she PREVIOUSLY OKAY'D THEM!!! Second, she's such a sarcastic bitch. Third, why the fuck would she okay those days if they weren't fucking okay with her?

So I called her and, of course, she didn't answer. I left a message telling her it was unfair of her to okay those days off FOREVER ago and then just go back on her word and if she was going to do that then I'd just quit because it wasn't worth it to me.

Obviously she was screening her calls from me because she called me right back. She claims she didn't see that I had asked off for New Years (which is BULLSHIT because she highlighted those days so she had to have seen them along with all the others) and that she wouldn't have okay'd them had she seen them. I started to cry because I am stressed about Grandma and Grandpa being so sick and because I'm tired of dealing with Tracy's bullshit and I just can't handle this anymore. So she pretty much said that she'll promise me Thanksgiving and Christmas but she can't promise me New Years. And it's UNFAIR. I do so much crap for that bitch. She takes away days off she already gave me and I just let her. She wants me in early and I come in early. She needs me to do bullshit for other stores and I do it despite the fact that I HATE going to other stores. I work my ass off at that fucking store and this is how I get treated. And sorry if it seems like I'm overreacting but I am so HURT and ANGRY and I just cannot deal with this, especially since she lied to me on top of everything else.

I just don't know what to do. Sure, I could go find another job but then I lose my insurance. Or I could transfer stores but then I risk not getting the hours I need. So I don't know what to do. I don't trust her. And frankly, I don't really trust anyone in that store anymore. I should have known better. I told myself when I quit Perkins and started at Caribou that I would not develop any relationships with anyone there. Because I didn't want to get hurt anymore. And because I didn't want to feel lied to anymore. Or have rumors started about me. Or come home feeling like shit. And now here it is all over again. But this time I feel so stuck. And I seriously do not know what to do.