It is amazing how tired I am from this weekend. We stayed up later than I'm used to (which is only about 1 AM but generally I am asleep before midnight) and slept until 11 in the morning. There were lots of games played (Apples to Apples, categories, Ninetendo) and a haunted house (that was hella scary) and it was a generally good time. Except for when my brother turned into a jerk and that kind of sucked. Kind of a lame end to an otherwise good weekend.

I'm really bummed out because Kalyn messaged me on Myspace and told me she's bummed because I was supposedly discussing her love life to someone at work. I truly don't remember discussin it with anyone that I shouldn't have and she won't get back to be to tell me who it was. So now she doesn't trust me and this has put a huge damped on my weekend, especially after what happened with Ryan. I am so stressed out right now with my friendships, I feel like everything keeps getting screwed up and I'm left with no one. I guess that's not completely true but I'm really not happy about this and with Kalyn not even explaining to me what happened I'm not really sure what to do.

Why do I feel as if I'm not getting enough out of life lately? I feel like I just sit by and try to make each day pass as quickly as possible, even the good days. I don't know how to make this stop and I wish I could someone get more out of my life. I'm scared that one day I will look back and be sad that I didn't take things in more. I already feel like that now, I look back on high school and the first few years of college and I wish that I had appreciated everything more.

More soon. Dustin's home with food.