Man... my life is about to change. In a little over a week I'll be moving in with Dustin, my boyfriend. For the most part I am SO SO SO SO SO excited! I mean, I'll get to spend more time with D and I think this will really move our relationship to another level. Plus I'll be back in River Falls and I won't have to live with girls anymore! A little part of me is nervous simply because, well, I mean, there's always a chance things may not work out. I'm sure that's just the pessimistic part of me talking but I'm trying to prepare myself for the fact that we may find that we can't live together. I truly don't believe that's the case, I mean, D and I get along so great and he's one of my best friends. I guess I'm just a little scared, as with every new step I've taken in my life. But, like I said, the excitement is greatly outweighing it.

Things have been tiring lately. Tracy's been having more issues at work with certain employees and I'm becoming the person she depends on to pick up shifts. It's great to be the dependable one because I do need the hours and the money but at the same time I WANT MY LIFE BACK. I know things will get a little better after this next week when I won't be working at Grand and Snelling anymore. I'm just hoping that I can still get decent hours AND days off. It'd be nice, that's for sure.

I am having a hard time getting Josh out of my head lately. I tried to let things go but I'm really hurt by how he's treating me. At one time we cared for each other and I know I screwed things up but I thought Josh had forgiven me. However, suddenly he can't be bothered to return my phone calls or texts and that really hurts my feelings. Josh is one of those people that you can't help but like and he was someone that I truly respected. Despite everything I wanted him to be in my life because he's such a positive, good person. However, either through something I did or because of some other reason Josh has decided to stop being my friend. He doesn't return my calls or texts and it just bothers me so much. I'm not good at giving up easily and I hate to lose people who mean something to me. I know I should just let things go but I really want to know the reason why he won't even tell me what happened. If it was something I did I'd at least like to know about it because I truly do not believe that I did anything wrong.

I am so tried right now. I'm been up since 3:10 this morning and despite a nap this afternoon I'm just exhausted. Tomorrow I have a double shift, I'm working at my store from 11 to 3 and then Grand and Snelling from 5 to close. At least I'll be closing with Lexie tomorrow and I get to look forward to seeing Dustin when I'm done. But it's going to be a VERY long day. So... for now, I'm signing off. More soon.