Hmm.

I definitely do not write as much as I used to. Part of the problem is that my comp BLOWS and will only stay on for about 15 minutes. Yeah, it's fun.

I've been thinking about ex's A LOT lately... mostly because they're kind of just popping up. Rich and I have talked a tad online. The past of me that's forgiving just kind of wants to let my hate go and, well, forgive him. However, when we've talked to still get the feeling that he doesn't see that he's done anything wrong or that he even cares. Not to say that I don't appreciate imperfection but he can be a very cruel person and that makes me sad. Then there's Ben... last week I was reading my old diary from junior year of HS and all about my whirlwind romance with Ben. It made me really sad, actually, and I was dwelling on it for a couple of days afterwards. I think I just miss being that naive and innocent. I'm not like that at all anymore. And Josh. He called the other night. I've come to realize I never really cared for him as a boyfriend but I adore him as a friend.

All this thinking is making me love Dustin even more. I made A LOT of dating mistakes but Dustin makes up for all of them. Even if he does drive me nuts sometimes.

There is SO MUCH happening and FAST. Next week is the last week of classes and then it's finals. Then there's Christmas, then New Years, and then D and I go up to Hayward for a few days. I am SUPER psyched for the New Years party Shan and I are having, it will be THE PLACE to be.

Okay... boredom. More soon.