Well, happy birthday to me, I suppose. 22. It's not exactly a big birthday or anything but I do love my birthday even though I never seem to have a fantastic one.

Things started out well, anyway. Shannon and James were supposed to come out to Woodbury so that we could go to dinner but neither of us knew that James had a class till 8:30. I'd already made plans with Dustin to go out to RF that night and then found out that Benji and his wife Rebecca were coming over to watch movies. I was really psyched because Benji's moving next month so I really wanted to see him. Anyway, so Shan and I went to Chili's and said that if James got done early with class we'd meet up with him for a little bit.

Chili's was okay. I wasn't a fan of the batter they used on the chicken but the Calypso Cooler was yummy! As was Shannon's Appletini. Yum! So that was good times. Afterwards we came back to my place for a little bit. I know James is mad because he felt ditched. I wish he'd understand that A) I was STARVING. I don't eat all day on the days I have classes so there was no way that I could wait till he got to Woodbury to eat. B) We truly didn't know until yesterday that his class didn't get out till 8:30. It's hard to keep track of everyone's schedules, I can barely keep track of my own most of the time. And C) I did make other plans with the intentions that I would have dinner with Shannon and James and then head out to RF. I couldn't just break those plans. So yeah. I do feel bad but it's not really my fault or Shan's. So... yeah.

Shan left around 9 and I took Kassi to work then headed to RF. I had tried sending Dustin some texts about Saturday and what not but I kept getting them back saying they weren't sent. Believe me, this will play in later. I got out to RF a little after 9:30 and around 10 Benji and Rebecca showed up. I've met Benji's wife once but have never really hung out with them so I was excited for movie night. We sat around waiting for D to get done with work and then headed back to Dustin's.

Well we made drinks and sat down to watch Back to the Future Part III. At midnight I got happy birthdays all around which was kind of a nice. A little later I went to get my chapstick from Dustin's room. His phone was there and I'm always checking his background to make sure the gay bear is there (long story). Then I figured I'd check to see if he got my texts because sometimes it'll say that the texts weren't sent even when they were. So I scrolled through his messages... and found something that made my heart drop out of my stomach.

They were texts from Alyssa, Dustin's ex, saying that she's broken up with Nate, the guy she cheated on D with and has been dating for a year, and that she wanted Dustin back. Then a text from Alyssa saying, "I love you Dustin Wade Hartenstein." I couldn't help it... I checked the texts Dustin sent to her and they were saying that he'd talk to her about it and e-mail her and that... he loved her too. I was just shocked and hurt and angry. I walked back to the living room and just sat there shaking and completely freaked out. Dustin kept asking me what was wrong and I couldn't even say anything to him. Finally I asked him if we could go to his room and talk for a minute.

So we went to Dustin's room and I explained that I had looked at his texts to see if he'd gotten mine... and then I asked him what was going on with Alyssa. I was shaking so bad and trying so hard not to cry. At first he just said nothing and... I don't know. He explained that she had broken up with Nate and did want him back but that it wasn't happening and that he loved me. It's just.... God I hate this. There are all these girls who think he's so great and then here comes his ex, who he wanted back SO BADLY. It just scares me SO BAD.

We went back to the living room and it was fun. Rebecca got fairly tanked and it was just silly and nice and I really wish Benji and Rebecca weren't moving because I really like them!

So yeah... here I am. Hoping nothing else bad happens on my birthday. Fingers crossed. More soon.