I've started to write a couple of times in here but ended up losing all inspiration. It's hard to write an entry when you know that the entire entry will be nothing but complains about things gone wrong.

Thing is, I feel really hassled right now. I have too much stuff on my plate and, frankly, I'm not all that hungry. Between moving, being hassled by my landlords, being hassled by my parents, having to get school work done, my computer not working right, gas prices going up, and my boss being a complete bitch it's SO HARD to stay positive. I try to keep in mind that by September 10th at least a few of my problems will disappear. That makes me feel a little better... but September 10th seems oh so very far away.

I have a little secret to share. I think I may quit Caribou. I know I was SO excited when I started working there but I'm really not that happy. A lot of this is because of the new boss, Tracey, who doesn't like me. But then I look around and I see other things I'm not happy with. Caribou Corporate is so stuffy and I sometimes feel like all the work I do is for nothing. I'm just not into it. So we'll see. I'd really love to bitch Tracey out for being such a stuck up bitch. She'd definitely deserve it. It's not that I want to be mean but seriously, she reminds me of every girl that I couldn't stand in high school.

Things with Dustin could not be better and I am very grateful for that. He's letting me keep all my stuff at his place, which he definitely doesn't need to do, and I know it can't be very easy to be my boyfriend right now when I'm being so negative and snappy. I'm incredibly lucky.

The sad thing is, though, sometimes I feel this great want to call Rich. Not because I miss him or really care to hear anything he has to say. I want to scream so loudly at him! It's like every day of my relationship with Dustin makes me realize how poorly Rich treated me and makes me want to hit him and hurt him the way he did for 2 and a half years. I didn't deserve the way that he treated me and he deserves to hear that. It's hard for me to not be angry and to just let go of it because I feel like so much of my time was just WASTED and I missed out on SO MUCH. I don't know, it's as if I don't have much closure. I feel perfectly fine around Dustin, it doesn't seem to be hurting our relationship. But it is something that is in my mind and I wish I could figure out what to do to get rid of it.

Okay... class is starting so I suppose it's time to pay attention. More soon!