Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh oh my gosh ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh. Oh my gosh my heart feels so full. I just... feel so full of something wonderful, something sunshiney and rosy and filled with butterflies and I just want to flit and flutter and dance all over and tell everyone all of the wonderful things I am feeling.

Is it totally dorky and nerdy that all I want to do is make Dustin smile, that all I can do sometimes is sit and stare at him and think of what an absolutely fantastic, awesome, beautiful person he is. As I sit here typing this words I've got tears in my eyes. And maybe that is no big surprise to anyone because I do tend to cry a lot. But for the first time in quite awhile they are small, quiet tears that are a symbol of how absolutely happy I am. For once I am not sitting here crying so loud, my heart bruised and broken, my soul feeling dead. Instead I feel light as a feather, so happy within myself... instead, for the first time in so long, I have found someone that truly fits perfectly into my heart.

I cannot believe how great life has been this summer. I cannot believe that I found out that you don't have to bow down to someone in order for them to care about you. Instead you only have to be yourself and that's enough and to someone that's wonderful and grand and it's all that matters. I know I sound so sappy and lovesick and smitten and I truly cannot help myself. Because I am. I'm nuts and crazy and head over heals into this boy. I'm completely falling for him.

Okay. I just wanted to say that. So there.

Harry Potter comes out at midnight. Can you stand the excitement?