"You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it."
- Harry Potter
I FINALLY finished the 5th Harry Potter and am ready to jump right into the 6th Harry Potter. I bought the book the day it came out but wanted to reread the 5th one first and I am SO glad I did because it was truly like reading a book for the first time; I didn't remember any of it! I'm really excited to start the 6th book and I'll probably start today. Dustin has jury duty today and I don't really have anything planned. Just gotta get stuff done that I've been putting off.
I feel a little better after the entry I wrote yesterday. The quote above really describes how I feel a lot of the time. Sometimes I am so overwhelmed by my emotions that I get completely freaked out. I truly am happy being with Dustin, I feel like I finally found someone that I can completely be myself with and absolutely adore. I just get scared sometimes that I will somehow hurt him. I would rather be alone and unhappy without him than have there be ANY WAY for me to somehow hurt him. I love him so much, I just want to know that he's happy. He says he's happy with me and I know it's time to just be content with that.
Things have been fairly good except for the moving situation. I won't comment on that because I just don't even want to go there at the moment.
Yesterday Shan and I went out shopping for Amber's bachelorette party which is this Saturday. I'm not sure how it will go but it should be fun. It's just going to be Amber, Shannon, Elisa and me and who knows how Elisa will fit in with the group. I mean, she hasn't been around during the past year. Sometimes I really wish things were different. Anyway, we bought some caution tape at Sex World and then a bachelorette kit at Spencer's gifts. We also got Amber's wedding gift, something that is as beautiful and unique as she is. Oh I'm so excited! The invitation for her wedding FINALLY came the other day and it really seems to make the entire thing more real. I can't believe my best friend since 7th grade is getting married!
There are SO many plans for the next couple of months. And Dustin's included in all of them. The second week in August we're going up to Mom and Dad's again for the weekend and I'm really excited to be getting away from it all again. Hopefully I'll have the moving situation figured out by that point! The 3rd weekend is Amber's wedding. Dustin's ex-girlfriend's older sister is going to do my hair and then we're heading out to Shan and Ryan's to go to the wedding with them. The 4th weekend is Woodbury days and I HAVE to catch The Dweebs at least once this summer. As for September there's bridesmaid dress shopping for Shannon's wedding, MY BIRTHDAY (and getting my second tattoo) and going to a wedding reception for.... someone that Dustin's family knows. So yeah, it's going to be a crazy but fun couple of months, I'm pretty psyched!
ANYWAY! I'm going to make Dustion a blog so I can introduce him to the blog world and then it's time to start the newest Harry Potter. More soon!
