Thanks for that fantastic quote Shan. Makes me think of a few of my exes *small smile*

So I haven't written in a few days because I've been fairly busy. It's definitely taking a toll on me, I'm super tired today and kinda headachey. But it was a really fun weekend so I guess it's semi worth it.

On Thursday I worked from 12 to 4 and it was a pretty good shift. I worked with Jeremiah and Natalie, both of which are pretty cool. Jeremiah kind of ran me through all the side work they do during the day and on how to make coolers. It's funny because I thought I would fall right back into being able to make drinks but I'm SO rusty. It has been over a year since I worked at Borders. I miss just going to it and making drinks in a flash. I'm sure it'll come to me eventually.

After work I went to Shannon's to spend the night because I had to work at 7AM the next morning. We got Pizza Hut and sat around chowing down (as did Franky, who discovered a love for the garlic sauce). Then we went to Wal-mart where we discovered Bubba Kegs, coolers, and random toys that we thought Dustin would like, hehe. We then went to Kohl's and tried on some super cute but a little too small dresses. Finally it was back to the apartment to watch Napoleon Dynamite (not as dumb as I thought it would be) and make nummy chocolate chip cookies.

Friday kind of sucked at work because Tricia put me on during a shift that is really busy when I still don't really know what I'm doing. Plus there were too many people on so it was like we were stepping all over each other. I was EXHAUSTED, I'm really not used to mornings at all anymore. So it was a hard morning and I was so happy when 11 arrived and I could drive home.

I got back to the apartment a little before noon and just lazed around. I watched Days and then fell asleep for about 3 hours. It took all the energy I had to drag myself out of bed and get my stuff together for ValleyFair the next day. Dustin showed up around 7ish and we then went to his place. I helped him clean up his room a bit (who knew he had carpeting on the floor?) and then we settled down to watch Star Wars. We both crashed pretty early, something that's fairly unusual for us.

Saturday morning was hard, lol. When my alarm went off at 7:15 I just wanted to throw my phone across the room and go back to sleep. Instead I dragged myself out of bed and went home to shower and get ready for the day. Around 8:30 Dustin arrived to help me cut fruit for the fruit salad. That was funny... Dustin and I shouldn't be allowed to play with knives or to put food together. We act like we're 5, lol.

Valleyfair was SO much fun! We had a group of 12... Dustin, me, Shannon, Ryan, Lewann, Brandon, Amber, Jono, Elisa, Tom, James and Bob. It was nuts! For the first part of the day we did rides all together. We went on all the rollercoasters and all that good stuff, it was bunches of fun. It was such a perfect day too, sunny and gorgeous and for some reason the lines were short! Definitely a good day. Around 1ish we all went to the picnic area to have lunch. SO GOOD! We had chips and drinks and burgers and hotdogs and, of course, the awesome fruit salad that D and I made. We kind of chilled for awhile. Elisa and Tom left a little way through, they had a grad party to go to. After awhile the rest of us packed up. Shannon, Ryan, Lewann, Brandon, D and I split off and went to the waterpark for a bit. That was lots of fun! We chilled on the lazy river, went on this big tube waterslide, and then went down the other waterslides. We finished off with the lazy river again and finally it was time to head out. Lewann, Brandon, D and I finished off the day by going on Steel Venom.... SO much fun! Good times were had by all!

Brandon and Lewann headed back to River Falls after that and D and I went to Shan and Ryan's to relax for a bit. We gave Dustin his birthday gift. Oh it was so funny. D was SO uncomfortable, lol. I knew he would be, he's so straight when it comes to stuff like that. I don't think I'd ever be able to get him into Sex World. In a way... it's kind of nice. Every now and again it's sorta fun to pull out the handcuffs or whatever and goof around. But truly, should you have to pull that kind of stuff out to have good sex?

We met up with James, Bob, Jono and Amber at Leaning Tower of Pizza around 8:30. That was definitely a good time. The karaoke wasn't as big this time so we had pizza and then James, Bob, Jono, Dustin, Amber and I sat outside. The boys were smoking cigars and it was just a great night to sit outside. Shannon and Ryan were inside doing karaoke. Oh it was nice, I had a good time.

That night I stayed at D's. I ended up fairly upset... we were talking about Rich and about me not being able to totally trust Dustin. It's hard... I've been having a hard time. I adore being with Dustin. I would love to be his girlfriend and I would love to love him and I would love to forget about Rich and every other ex I've had that's made me feel like I'm not good enough. But I am having a very hard time putting my past in my past and ever putting my past with Dustin in my past. Things are going so well between us and we click together so well. I know if things are to continue going well I need to let go. But I am having such a hard time. If I don't soon it's going to start hurting Dustin and me. I have to figure something out really soon. I have to straighten things out.

Last night Mom stayed over and it was really nice. We got Dairy Queen and then came back to the apartment to watch TV and what not. We talked about Rich and Dustin which was nice because I like being able to talk to my mom about stuff like that. It was just good to have her here.

I'm so excited to be going up to the house this coming weekend with D. I'm excited to be getting away and to be getting away with the person that I am trying to learn how to trust. It will be nice to just push the troubles away for a little while and to concentrate on bettering my relationship with D. Because he is SO important to me and I want things to be good between us. I really think it will be a good weekend for both of us.

Well... I think I may have found someone to take my place starting in August. I still have to figure some things out but we shall see. For now it is SUPER dark outside at only 2:30 in the afternoon so I'm going to shut my comp off in case the storm is really nuts. More soon!