Well last night I crashed my car into a wall before going to work. It sounds worse than it actually is and I don't really feel like going into it because I'm sure some of you are just waiting to make fun of me and call me a horrible driver. If I hear a word out of anyone I'll punch them in the face. Because it's not funny, it's money I don't have and it's making me even more stressed than I already am. So go ahead, make fun of me. And be ready for a black eye. Needless to say I am very thankful to Shannon who came to my rescue when I was done with work which kept me from completely breaking down. And also a big thanks to my unnamed saviors who happened by last night and help to make my car at least driveable. And finally a thanks to Dustin who held me last night and, whether he knows it or not, helped me to forget for a little bit that my car looks fucking retarded.

I will say that my first day of work wasn't as okay as it could have been because I was too worried about my car. I feel shy there but the good thing is there aren't nearly as many people working at one time there as there are at Perkins. Makes it easier to remember names and to not make me feel so overwhelmed. Tricia, my new boss, started me on the register last night and... I hate starting on new registers because I'm used to the registers that I've gotten good on where my fingers can just fly. I hate being slow at something. I know I'm learning but being a perfectionist I want to be perfect RIGHT NOW. Tricia also showed me a little bit about inventory but I know that will take time, inventory is a tricky thing sometimes. Today I work an noon... in fact I have to leave soon to get there on time. I think I'm getting trained on all the sidework today. Nice. And tomorrow I work at 7 (yes, AM) and I believe I'm getting trained on making drinks. I'm bummed out because tonight I'm going to be missing D's birthday party because I'm going to stay with Shan in the cities tonight so I don't have to wake up ultra early tomorrow. I really don't want to have to miss his birthday, I feel bad and everyone from Perkins is going to be there. So it kind of sucks. I can't believe I'm already complaining about this job! Lol, I'm a dork.

I slept at D's last night after stopping by Perkins to see people. We ate popcorn and watched Blow and he held me. I didn't sleep well last night, I kept waking up and Dustin was awake and it was just annoying. So I'm sure I'll be zonked tonight. Ah well. I'd still rather sleep at D's then alone.

Anyway... work. More soon.