I love how I say I'm not going to write for awhile and then end up writing anyway. Whatever. I was really angry Friday and I'm still really angry. There's poison in my life and it pushed me back A LOT on Friday. I am so unhappy with what happened and how it made me feel so utterly helpless. I plan on figuring out this week, one way or another, what I'm going to do. And putting this bullshit to and end.

I am quite lucky to have Dustin in my life. He was really there for me on Friday, even at three in the morning when some don't feel they need to be there for their friends anymore. Like, what, being friends with someone is like having a job and you get to pick which hours you don't have to be a friend? Have fun being alone.

Saturday Elisa came over. We had a talk about how we'd both been bad friends and there had been misunderstandings. It was good to see her and good to talk and it didn't feel at all uncomfortable like I thought it would. So hopefully things will get better from here on out with all us girls and we can go back to some form of a more grown up "clique."

I worked 5 to close Saturday and it was DEAD. Which was fine because we were all having fun goofing off and being silly. I don't know what my deal was but I was being totally naughty, flirting with all my guy coworkers. We had fun though, it's nights like that that I really like working at Perkins.

After work D and I went to Christie and Dennis' for biscuits, gravy and fresh fruit. So good! It's food like that that fills you up for a week. It was just D, me, Christie, Dennis and Haylee. So we ate and watched TV and played with the dogs. But that's also the kind of food that makes you SO sleepy. We left around 2ish and I went back to D's to watch some TV. I've been crashing at his place quite a lot lately. It's good to have someone that I can just curl up with and feel comfortable with. We talk about so many things and he's so good to me. It's hard to not want to crash with someone that you can be like that with. It's better than having to sleep alone in a tiny bed wondering what you've done wrong to make someone not want to be with you. At least Dustin takes my mind off things like that.

Today I did the DUMBEST thing. I was washing my work stuff and some other clothes. I had a load of colors sitting on the dryer while I poured in the soap. Well, I just slid the clothes right into the washer. Problem is that with the clothes I accidently pushed in a box of dryer sheets in. So when the load was ready for the dryer I opened up the washer and... cardboard and fluff ALL OVER my stuff. Could not believe it. It was a HUGE bummer. *sigh*

Work was SLOW today so Dustin and I kind of.. well. Okay, so I went to a table with two drinks and a shake and totally tripped over my feet. Luckily I spilled the stuff onto an empty table but was SO embarassed. I walked back to get new drinks and Dustin was just laughing his ass off! So I wiped some whip cream on his shirt, lol. He chased after me with the can of whip cream and... well, it was war. Man I'm scared! But it was good, I made okay money tonight despite it being slow.

Anyway.... I have a meeting with a potential roomie tomorrow. That and Sundae is being psycho kitty so I need to calm her down. Soooooooooooo, more soon!