So I have to say, last night was SO much fun and I really, really needed it. I'm so stressed out about this situation that's come into my life, I'm tired because I haven't been sleeping well due to my throat being so dry at night, and I'm unsure due to, well, Rich. By the time Dustin called me last night to tell me he'd be swinging by my place soon I almost didn't want to go out. I felt so unhappy and all I wanted to do was sit and cry. I have so much I want to say and generally I am so good at talking and voicing my opinion. However, when it comes to this I just clam up. I can't get the words out and even if I do get WORDS out, they're the wrong words. I end up sounded stupid or mad or crazy or... something.

Anyway... so Dustin and I met up with James, Shannon, and Ryan at the Leaning Tower of Pizza in Minneapolis for JAMES' 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!! Yay to that, James is finally 21!

I have to say that I've only been to Leaning Tower twice but I really like that place. It's a great atmosphere, a really nice looking place, the staff is nice and the food is great. Yay to good drinking places!

When we got there we found out it was karaoke night. Now, I talk big talk about my love for karaoke but I've only ever done karaoke at YIG and YIG is kind of my haven. It's the one place I don't get nervous, the one place where I feel like I'm an equal with everyone else and if I'm being silly everyone else is probably being silly too. So I pretty much decided I probably wouldn't do karaoke at Leaning Tower.

Well... that was until I got a few drinks in me, lol. I started off with a Malibu and pineapple juice, which is about the most refreshing drink ever and they go down like water, lol. I drank that FAST and then it wqas two for one's so I got myself an amaretto (sp?) sour. I got that down fairly fast and by that point the pizza had arrived and so had Amber. Shannon and I each did a slippery nipple, which is SUCH a great shot (thanks for introducing me to it Shan) and then I got my second amaretto sour. By this point Shan and Ryan had been up to sing Ob-La-Di and then Amber went up to sing Footloose, which was absolutely hysterical.

We moved table because we'd been crushed into a little 4 person booth. Then us girls went up to sing Borderline by Madonna. That was way too much fun, I pretty much just pictured Rich in the front row and felt like I was singing my heart out to him. It felt good, lol. Afterwards we signed Dustin up to sing I'm Too Sexy. I got my next drink, a sex on the beach. Well, Dustin goes up to sing and it was HYSTERICAL. He was up there stripping and Amber and I go to stuff money in his pants. Oh my gosh I was laughing so hard I was almost crying! Way too funny! Finally Amber saying a song from Flashdance and Ryan went up to sing some songs. We were all just feeling karaoke and the karaoke dude was GREAT and so was the crowd.

James, meanwhile, is getting trashed. James, how much did you have? Lots of beer, a couple of Irish car bombs, then some girl bought him some shot that involved tequilla and that was it. That killed him. James ended up out on the sidewalk puking next to a tree. It was awesome, lol. James, I hope you had a great birthday even though you puked, lol.

So as all this is going on outside we're randomly runnng inside for my impromptu karaoke. Basically the karaoke guy was giving Ryan shots for every so he would sing, lol. Oh, and Ryan leid me. Sorry Shan. He was a good lei if it makes you feel any better! And Amber got up to sing These Boots Are Made For Walking which I HAD to sing with her because, hello, Nancy Sinatra in boots? Yes!

Oh man... it was a good night. I had a lot to drink.... one malibu and pineapple juice, two amaretto sours, a slippery nipple, and two... how would you say it, sexes on the beach? Sex on the beaches? The correct grammar says you make the first word plural (like brothers in law) but that doesn't sound right. Whatever. Lol, I had lots to drink. It was fun.

D and I had a good talk on the drive back. I had a talk with Paul earlier in the day too. However, it's probably too late. Rich probably already hates me and I'm never going to get a chance to say anything. It really hurts. And it bothers me. Why can I tell other people all these feelings that I have but when it comes to telling the one person that really matters... I get tongue tied. It sucks.

Anyway. So today is mother's day and I can't even get hold of my mom. How sad is that? I also have to work tonight, the first time in a week. Should be... fun?

So time for a shower. More later!