Sleepy. It was a long, tiring, lack of sleep weekend. It's been like that a lot lately. I'm feeling really run down and I find myself constantly counting the days till the semester's over. Life just feels really hectic lately and I just want it to S L O W D O W N.

I have a lot to do this week for classes. Today after my morning stuff I have to write my org. comm. paper which is due tomorrow and not Thursday like I originally thought. After work tonight I have to write my cheat sheet for stats and study for the test that we have tomorrow. In between all this I sometimes have to get half of The Great Gatsby read. Tomorrow won't be as bad, just studying for my geology exam, but that's still stressful because those exams are really tough. Oh, and tomorrow I have to read the other half of The Great Gatsby. Yay. And Thursday I HAVE TO get my astronomy project done and knock out some of my org comm project.

I won't even talk about certain things that went on this weekend except to say that my name is being run through the mud a little bit more. I don't know when I became the girl that everyone likes to pick on but I'm getting tired of it. Go find someone else, it's getting damn old.

I find myself wanting and needing a change in my life. But in order to go about I have to drop down my defenses and allow someone into my life in a way that I haven't let him in before.

I'm tired. I need to get through this week.