I think I've got spring fever. I've never really had it this bad but I'm going NUTS right now. I'm daydreaming like crazy, I feel locked up ALL the time, all I want is to go outside without heavy close on and get warmed up by the sunshine. I'm praying that over spring break it will be semi warm out so I don't continue to feel like I'm in prison. Ah, I'm going CRAZY!

Life is pretty good right now despite the feeling of prison. Classes are going okay although I wish it was May and finals week was over. I've decided I'm not taking any summer classes so I'm looking forward to a summer in which I only have to work. It'll be nice to be able to relax my brain a little. Friends are good, too. Amber will be home on Friday for her spring break. On Saturday we're going to 90's and on Sunday we're going rollerblading. I'm excited, it will be great to see Amber again because it's been since... gosh, has it been since winter break? It sucks that I don't get to see her more but hopefully we'll make the most of it. Elisa and I have sent a few e-mails back and forth. We're trying to find a time to get together but we're both pretty busy with conflicting schedules right now. Hopefully we'll find time soon. As for Perkins, the drama seems to have calmed down. Dustin is sticking strong to staying away from Leah and the rest of us are all getting along and having fun. So that's great. Mom and Dad haven't called me nor have I called them. I'm pretty angry with them right now and don't have all that much to say to them. As for Rich... he's damn busy with this GM stuff and it sounds like he will be for the next few weeks. It really sucks because... I feel like I want this time to get to know him better. And because we suddenly are getting along so well that it makes me want to be around him more. I don't know what happened that caused the both of us to calm down but whatever it is... I like it. I like it a lot.

Actually... I've been thinking about Rich a lot lately. It's part of the reason I've been daydreaming so much. I am loving the time we've been spending together and every time I see him I find myself liking him more and more. Sometimes I feel like I've met a new person, which is both weird and exciting. It's as if... I have this new Rich but I also have the comfort and familiarity that I had with the old Rich. It's like... I no longer feel as if I want him to be something he's not. There were so many times before that I found myself thinking, "If only he could be a little more like this...." or "If only he could just change this little part of himself." It made me feel bad and I knew that wanting him to change was not good. However... I haven't found myself thinking that once since he came back into my life. I don't really know what that means or how that changed. But I love the happiness he brings me.

I wish my damn hair would grow.

I can't believe I'm going to cut this entry short because I had so much more to write. But I need to get some grocery shopping done. Soooooo more soon!