I am very, very tired of being a doormat. I'm very, very tired of being lied to and I am VERY, very tired of looking like a fool.

Last night Dustin came into Perkins because Bryan and I wanted to chill with him. Just before he came in, around 7:30, Heath said I was free to go. So Dustin comes in and I go out with them to stand around while Dustin and Bryan smoked cigars. I thought it was a little funny that Dustin asked Leah to come outside too... but then again, he asked pretty much the whole staff so I figured he was just being nice.

Then we're back inside sitting in 16 and rolling silverware. Dustin sits down next to Leah and I still thought it was a little weird how nice he was being to her. But I still just figured he was being Dustin. So I still didn't think anything of it. We all sat around drinking coffee and giggling and pissing off Heath... it was a good time.

I came back home and a little bit later I saw Dustin online so I asked him if he wanted to come over and watch a movie. We haven't really hung out since the hang out night two weeks ago and I just kinda wanted to make sure things were comfortable between us when it was just the two of us.

However, Dustin tells me he can't because he's going to hang out with Leah. Um... huh? Since when. Do you not remember the fact that Leah lied to both Christina and me? Do you not remember that she bitched both of us out, all because she wanted you all to herself? Do you not remember how the next day you went off about her... because I saved that conversation because I KNEW you'd go back to her! When he told me that I just lost it. The girl spends all her time lying and sleeping around and the worst part is that when Dustin's friends with her I can't trust him. Because anything I say to him in trust he turns around and tells her. Because he lies to me when he's friends with her. This past Thursday after I got home from Rich's Dustin and I were supposed to hang out. But he didn't call me. He finally gets online and I asked why he didn't call. I was a little pissed because I can't stand when people do stuff like that. He said that his phone wasn't working and that he was tired so he didn't want to hang out. I said that was cool, whatever. Then the next day at work Leah mentioned that Dustin was out at the bars. I thought that was kind of funny, both because Dustin had said he was tired and because Leah knew he'd been out. But I STILL chose to trust him. And now I realize that he outright lied right to me!

The truth has a funny little way of ALWAYS coming out. You lie and people WILL find out. And I am SO angry because once again I started to trust Dustin and once again he lied right to me. I'm sick of it. I want GOOD people in my life. I want to be a trusting person again. I'm really sick and really tired of continually having certain people in my life that take advantage of me..

Needless to say I pretty much bitched Dustin out. It was a pretty high school thing to do but I am so angry and hurt. I feel like a jerk pulling the whole, "If you're friends with her I can't be friends with you" line, especially because he's getting laid by her so I know it won't matter. But the fact of the matter is that when he is friends with her I do not trust him. And I do not want ANYONE in my life anymore that I do not trust.

So fuck you Dustin. I hope she's a really good lay and maybe this time she won't be fucking three other guys while she's fucking you. I hope you use some really good condoms. I wouldn't want any of the diseases she has to offer.

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