Please please please please please don't let me get sick. The flu and mono are going around campus and I've been feeling a little under the weather today. My nose is semi stuffy, I'm tired, I feel a little pukey... and I really cannot get sick right now. I can't miss work, I can't miss classes, and there's no one to take care of me if I get really sick with the flu or mono. A cold is bad enough. The flu and mono are things that you get when there's someone to take care of you. PLEASE don't let me get sick!

I have a little secret to tell. I would say don't tell Rich but... he'll read this and then he'll know. And then I guess it won't be a secret anymore. But until he does read this it will be a secret. Yeah. Anyway, my secret. So Rich lent me a white button up shirt to use for my little photo shoot with Doug. Weeellllllll, I like sleeping in it. It's so comfy and I look so cute in it and it makes me happy. Rich, I promise before I give it back, which may not be for a very long time because, like I said, I like the shirt, I will wash and iron it.

I absolutely cannot stand posers. They are the worst kind of people in the world because they try way to hard to be like people that they don't even really want to be like... just to please those people who probably aren't even good people in the first place. I did the whole poser thing all fall because I, for some really messed up reason, wanted to be a townie. I wanted everyone I worked with to like me, I wanted to go to the bars every weekend.... I wanted that. Till I realized that A) I'm not a townie B) I don't want to be a townie and C) Townies around here, for the most part, are stupid. I had respect for a few certain people around here and one person in particular. This person seemed like the kind of person that doesn't just do what everyone else is doing, that actually wanted to go somewhere, that wanted to be bigger than the place that he was raised. I'm not saying this is a horrible town. But how can you only want to ever be in the town you were born in? It makes no sense. And now this person is walking around doing things that everyone else is doing despite that fact that he sat and badmouthed those bad habits only a few months ago. It's gross. He's drastically changed so much and it just makes me feel ill. I see him now and I wonder what it was that ever made me want to be his friend. He was the kind of guy that I hated when I was in high school. Because he isn't at all comfortable just being himself. And that's sad.

Has anyone else noticed that while February is the shortest month it feels like the longest? I feel like I've been stuck in February for FOREVER. Every February just bugs me. It's dismal. I know I shouldn't complain so much but this weather and the fact that I'm probably sick isn't making me feel very upbeat. That and the fact that I have 3 tests this week and haven't studied yet for any of them. Does school ever end because it really doesn't feel like it's ever going to end.

I'll end this entry now because all I'm doing is complaining about stuff. I'll write again when I'm in a better mood.