First off I need to vent about a little something. This whole reality TV stuff is getting a little out of hand, even I will admit that. However, I love reality TV anyway because I love people and I love watching and learning about them. It's like getting to be a Peeping Tom without actually having to do anything against the law. The thing that I don't understand, though, is how MTV could come up with an idea and execute the idea to tape FIRST some spoiled rich kids from Laguna Beach AND THEN tape even more spoiled rich kids having their "sweet 16" birthday parties. Today I witnessed some Valley Girl child whining because her daddy may not get her a Range Rover and about how her mommy cut off her credit card because she snuck of of the house to go on a shopping spree. In the end, though, her folks still spent $200,000 on her birthday, complete with a trip to Paris for a dress and 4 men carrying her in on a bed to the party. Can we say sick? Send the money to starving children.

Anyway... I really am in a good mood. I'm in a REALLY good mood, actually. I'm SO HAPPY. These last few weeks I've felt like dancing. I mean, school is going okay, it's stressful but it's school and without it I'd probably sit around all day eating and watching soap operas. So I guess in a way school is a good thing (however quote me on that and I will swear up and down that I never ever wrote those words). Also, things with my friends are really good. Amber and I keep in touch as much as possible and while I'd like to see her more I'm content with the fact that we're tight and are doing what we can. As for Shannon and me, I'm really happy that we're hanging out so much and really getting along. I think part of the reason I was trying to hang out with RF kids so much was because Shannon and I weren't friends and so I needed someone to fill that void. And, well, the biggest reason right now that I can't stop smiling is, of course, because of Rich. I really never dreamed when I asked to see him again that we would end up in this spot. I feel like we're being given this second chance and I am honestly enjoying it so much. No longer do I feel the need to call him everyday or to be so obsessive as to want to know his whereabouts at all times. I wish I knew what's changed between us. Could it really just be that we needed a few months away from each other? I wish I knew. Or maybe I don't. Does it matter? We've been getting along so well so far. I just want it to continue. He's a really good person. I was wrong to speak so negatively of him.

There's more to it. But some things are better said to someone's face than written down for anyone to read. I don't keep many things off this blog but some of the things I'm thinking lately are better left unsaid, at least for now.

So for now... that's all. More soon.