So.Tired. So so so tired.

Last night after work Rich picked me up and we went to Dick's in Hudson. Mmm beer, even though it makes my tummy gurgly. It was nice, though, I kept waiting and waiting for the time when Rich and I could go out to the bars together and then... well, things happened. I hate that, I feel like we lost so much time over such silly stuff. Hanging out with him last night really made me question why on earth we wasted so much time. Ah well, it's in the past, right? Anyway, so we had beers and chatted and he poked my tummy in his usual Rich way. He was being such a goof and I love when he's like that. It was nice. After a few beers we got TACOS, mmmmm! We drove back from Hudson to my place and ate.... Rich had ANOTHER beer, sheesh! Then cuddling and kissing and all that good stuff. I have missed so much having his arms around me. Missed sleeping in the same bed with him. Although I do really need a new bed, lol. A bigger one. Anyway. Last night was really, really nice. I really just want to keep having a good time with him. I just want to keep being as happy as I have these last few weeks. I plan on keeping it that way.

Tonight Dustin and I ran to Woodbury so I could get an oil change and run some errands. I feel... comfortable yet uncomfortable around him. Like, I wish I could just get a straight answer from him about things but I know he'll never give me one. So I continue to not trust him. We can't really be friends. Like, we made these plans for tonight a week ago. But I just don't even are about making plans with him anymore. I like him and we could have been friends. But I don't want to be friends with someone that can't be straight with me. And he has trouble doing that.

Anyway, at 6 we met up with Shannon at Applebee's. That was good except I am SUPER full. We got buffalo wings for an appetizer and then our real food and I was drinking kiwi lemonades like they were going out of style, lol. But it was a good time and I got to see picures of Shannon baby brother who is SOOOO cute and looks just like their dad.

So right now I'm sitting here feeling SO tired. Tomorrow I just have geology from 10:10 to 11:05 and then I don't work until 5. Supposedly we're going to get our asses kicked so I'm not really looking forward to going in. Saturday I work 2 to 8 and then Sunday Shan and Ryan are coming out here to help me put up some shelves and then to maybe go out for food.

I'm really not looking forward to Monday. At least I work so that'll keep my head off things. But... it's Valentine's Day. It's so hard to see couples walking around all happy and in love and... here I am FINALLY feeling like I'm bouncing back a little from the relationship hell I put myself into. I know I shouldn't feel so sad but I just really want someone to hug and kiss and say that I care about them. Bah. Maybe the day will just go by fast. February 14th. Why?

Anyway time for ER and then I am going to BED. More soon.