Today was a pretty good day. I didn't get all that much accomplished... but these days I don't seem to be getting much accomplished. Actually... that's not totally true. I got all my job applications done and I HATE filling out job applications. But I really need to start getting SCHOOL stuff done, lol. My life is so psychotic sometimes, I need to get my priorities straight.
My geology test was the most killer of all three of my tests. Boo geology! Lewann was right, I should have been scared. But I will definitely be EXTREMELY prepared for our next test. SO THERE!
I ended up going to Rich's today. I did kind of want to talk to him about things... but I'm not there yet. I know I need to be honest. And it's not that I'm being dishonest by not saying anything. I'm just not ready yet. It's really funny with Rich. I feel closer to him than I ever have before. That both thrills me and... scares me a little bit. Only because I don't want to turn in psycho Krysten again so I'm worried about letting myself feel too soon. I'm not totally comfortable with holding myself back like this. And most of me feels ready. But there's still a little part that wants to make sure I'm stronger than I was. So I will wait. But I did go to Rich's today and it was good. He's so cute. Oh my gosh he is so cute. I have such a little girl crush on him, lol, I love it! I haven't had this kind of crush on someone in a VERY long time. I get all full of butterflies and I feel like such a dork. I love that feeling. I was SO jittery today. We were cuddled together and I swear I could not stop moving around. I felt 5 years old! He's making me feel so girlish, I don't know what it is. But I do like it. Anyway. We ran errands, lol. Kinda. We went to Subway, Caribou, Menard's, and Cub's. Lol, I would love to see Rich and me try to make a meal together. It'd be interesting. But probably cute. I'd get him into a food fight. And then I'd lick it off him.
OKAY! Enough of that!!
Shannon and James came over tonight and we had a good time. We went shopping for ingredients to make chicken florentine and REAL mashed potatoes. It was so funny because we did all our shopping and got back here... only to realize we forgot THE CHICKEN!!! Wow, we are SO smart, lol. So James and I ran back to the store while Shannon started on the potatoes. We had fun making dinner and being silly... then had more fun eating. Pictures were taken, hehe. Shannon was being so goofy and giggly which made me goofy and giggly. It was fun, I had a good time *smile* Thanks guys (well, guy and girl).
Okay... so I thought I'd clear things up. I know I sound REALLY bitter about Perkins. Part of me kind of is. I'm angry that I ended up being the bad guy in the whole Leah/Dustin situation. I guess I should just drop it, they aren't the kind of friends I have ever wanted for myself. But I hate knowing that I was lied to so many times on so many levels. I want to be a trusting person and I want to believe that people are good. But I keep meeting people like those two who keep proving to me that I should always be on my guard. And that sucks! It really just makes me not want to be at work because every time i see them or Loretta or Christina or Ali I just want to smack then and demand apologies. I mean, Randy's bad enough with his immaturity but that I could have dealt with. And the money sucked. But I don't like going into work and feeling like I'm being talked about behind my back. I didn't even have that in high school! And if people were talking in HS I had no idea. I just want the drama to stop, it makes me really angry. And I want people to stop lying to me. So if I sound like I'm totally bitter with work... it's not that. There are certain parts of my job and certain people I love. But no one deserves to have a job in which there's so much drama. So it's time I move on.
Anyway, the wine I had tonight made me sleepy so it's about that time. More soon!
