It's been three days
You come around here like you know me
Your stuff at my place
Next thing you know you'll be using my toothpaste
Step up, sit down
Get ready let me tell you who's the boss now
Stay here, get out
Everytime I turn around you're in my face
Don't care where you think you've been, and how you're getting over
If you think you've got me down
Just wait, it gets much colder
Here I am
Perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see, love me for me
Stick around, I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave
You'll see, love me for me
Shut up, come back
No I didn't really mean to say that
I'm mixed up, so what
Yeah you want me so you're messed up too
I love you, I hate you
If you only knew what I've been through
My head is spinnin'
But my heart is in the right place
Sometimes it has to have itself a little earthquake
Here I am
Perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see, love me for me
Stick around, I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You'll see, love me for me
I've been waiting all my life to finally find you
Just so I can push you away
And when you're crawling over broken glass to get to me
That's when I let you stay
Here I am
Perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see, love me for me
Stick around, I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You'll see, love me for me
I'm annoyed. I won't even say way. I'm just annoyed of little boys and of people in this silly little town and their drama and their rumors. Oh, and the sluts. I'm really sick of the sluts.
Anyway. Last night I went out to dinner with Shannon and it turned out to be a little bit of an adventure. We met up at Champps, a place I haven't been to in FOREVER. We each had a drink and chatted it up, ate... it was a good time. I told her all about what's been going on around here and about how I'm trying to remain optimistic... at least about a few things. We also talked about some little issues she's having with Ryan and all those kinds of good things. I think things will all work out. I really do.
After dinner we went around to Pier 1, World Market, and Bed Bath and Beyond. Isn't it funny how you start living on your own and you become so into furniture and things to hang on the walls and dishes and linens and bedding and all that crazy stuff that you couldn't stand to look at when you were a kid? There is this beautiful dish set at World Market and I want it so bad but I know it'll be a long time before I can afford it. I really need to find a job that'll pay me enough so I can start saving and affording nicer things. Lord knows Perkins won't do that for me.
Finally we ended up at Borders for coffee (decaf for me, that's a first). We walk in and who do we practically run into but JOSH! Couldn't believe it! It was a nice surprise and he's looking fairly adorable with his hair longish and curly. So we chatted for awhile and all that good stuff. John, one of my old regulars, was there too as well as Jessica, another girl I worked with at Borders. So it was a good time, good seeing old friends and all of that.
I'm falling back into the things I used to love in my old life, like my good friends. It's becoming less important to hang out with people here in town and I like it that way. So much drama goes on around here and I'm one of those people that gets caught up in it if it's there. I just don't like that. I much prefer dinner with Shannon, plans to drive down and see Amber, hanging with Josh (and even his girlfriend Kim), coffee with Rich. This whole obsession everyone has with the bar around here gets old really fast. I love having drinks with friends and it is fun to go bar hopping from time to time. But getting trashed 4 days of the week is just uncool. I know I keep saying this but just recent things are pushing me even more.
I had so much more to say and now I can't remember any of it. I'm tired!!!!!! And I have tons to do this weekend, eep. I am becoming one busy girl. More soon, that's for sure!