Man oh man am I tired. I came home from classes yesterday just exhausted but when it was time to go to sleep I was wide awake! Go figure. It's good, though, I ended up calling Tim so we chatted and caught up. We were both running around so much over break that we didn't get that much time to talk to each other so we had A LOT of catching up to do.

But I am a little zonked today. Astronomy... I don't know what to say about that class, he's one of those profs that seems to know A LOT but has trouble staying on the subject and realizing that we don't know as much as he does. Ah well, it's kind of amusing anyway. Geology is good, though, I really like the prof AND we got to watch an SNL skit today so it's all good. Yay for classes. After I wrote yesterday, when I was totally freaked about my Tuesday/Thursday classes I sat down and kind of broke the things down that I need to do for each class. So now they don't look SO overwhelming. I just plan on making this semester awesome, I really just want to push my GPA through the roof.

I truly think I might have dyslexia. It would explain a lot. Although maybe I'm just freaking myself out, lol, which would also explain a lot. I just have to wonder if my mixing things up these days and the fact that my study habits are HORRID have something to do with possibly having dyslexia. That or I'm just getting more scatterbrained with age. Do these blog entries seem random? After I write them and think about them later I wonder if my thoughts are only clear to me, lol. I seem to have a really weird way of going about things. Ah well... makes me unique, right, with or without dyslexia.

I did some thinking about something Rich said to me on Monday. Frankly I'm glad someone put it out there because I've been sort of thinking things over myself but figured I was just being weird. Am I turning into a total townie here? I have yet to go to a house party, or even to the usual town hangouts, but I'm to the point where I hang out with so many people from town that I'm pretty sure it's inevitable. But I'm not really like most people from around here. I'll insert Leah as a perfect example. She drinks a lot, does pot, has sex with just about anyone... her morals are very different from mine, and while that's fine, because we come from diffent lifestyles and have been through different things... I just don't agree with some of that. My drinking habits have gotten a little more out there than I'd like, getting excited about going to the bar just to get trashed because... hell, everyone else is doing it. When did I start being THAT girl. In high school I was SO against what "everyone else was doing." I was very much my own person, emotional and all, and I didn't give a damn about doing something just to fit in. But around here... that's about all there is to do. But I'm not so sure I like that lifestyle. I don't have the money to drink, not to mention it's slowly putting weight on me and I'm REALLY not happy with that. Plus... I always said I trusted Dustin to look out for me, because he's generally there when I'm out somewhere drinking. But I do have to take into account the night he nearly made me walk home while I was totally trashed. Do I really want to put my wellbeing in the hands of someone that would do that? I go back to Rich, who kind of mentioned that, which is odd because it's not like he's been around me lately but, in usual Rich fashion, he completely saw right through me. I'm not saying he's completely right, nor am I saying that I'm believing anything he says just because of Rich and, at one time, I followed the "Rich Philosophy." But I have to say that even before speaking to him I did have that little voice in the back of my head. So I think I'm going to try to chill out a little. I said that one of the things I wanted to do was form tighter friendships with my old group, since they're the people I count on, they're my family, they're the ones I love and adore. So if we happen to go out, which not everyone can yet (damn you James for being younger!) then that's cool, because I trust them to look out for me and I would hope they trust me too. And I know we can do more than just go out and drink. I don't want to lose the friendships I'm starting to form with certain people, like Ali, Lewann, Leah, and Dustin. But I've always been the kind of person that takes awhile to trust and this shouldn't be any different. And if they think I'm a loser because I'm not the type to get trashed every weekend... well then obviously they're not cool enough to be my friends.

So there.

I'll take a jump off my soapbox now.

ANYWAY that's about all, I gotta go read half the Iliad so I'm ready for class tomorrow. Joy. Wish me luck!